It's funny how our society is such a contradicting place. Like we want people to have dreams and follow them, but once they don't seem to match what society thinks are the "right" dreams, we put them down. Yet, once somebody achieves the dream that society looked down on, it can be praised like "see look, this person followed their dreams and look at their success, you should follow them." But that isn't quite true, because it normally follows the same cycle. Even with other things, like appearance, we've all seen those posts, Be yourself, so you do, but you can get harshly discriminated, so you try to follow the society and you could be stuck up, there isn't exactly a good side to anything. Even if you do happen to fall under a society liked person, there is pressure to stay that way. You do something different and it can make you drop very easily, or, more accepted. It's a risk people must take doing something against the society. But most of the times, society will always have opinions, could be wonderful or harrowing. It's a risk to take.

Sorry this is really bad, but I just suck in writing/grammar, so... I really do apologize.

Hey! Haven't been here for a while. I don't really know what I would like to write about... or what kind of blog this should. I mean, sure, it is my blog, whatever I want right? Yes, but I just don't know how much I want here... and what.... more focus (if any) it should be on. I don't know. Well, school's almost out and I'm glad. Except for the fact that there is summer homework waiting -.-. I DON'T KNOW ABOUT LIFE. I am graduating... soon so to speak, and I have no clue about colleges and scholarships or anything. I mean, safe school, I already got that, but what colleges are good? Good for my potential career? How do I find scholarship? Do I want to stay near home, a few states over, across the country, or study abroad? I don't even know. I don't think I would take a gap year, but the possibilities are endless. Does it matter about whether a school is public or not? What the heck are sororities and fraternities? Dorm or no? I don't even know!! I just want college to come while also dreading the idea... and the future that comes after. I don't know, existential crisis going on maybe? I know I wouldn't be able to live alone, I am too.... jumpy.... or paranoid. Scary movies and such has definitely left a mark... -.-. Oh gosh... and then bugs... ahahah, oh gosh, bugs, I don't want to kill them, but they freak me out... Like how would I be able to survive alone?? I mean, I think I could probably survive alone very well, but at night? Could I make it? I don't know. The ominous future of "real" life is out there and I don't know if I want to go in it or not... Does a guidance counselor help in these situations? I need to speak to someone who is well knowledgeable on schools, careers and such, which is counselor I believe? Oh gosh... I really wish I was more outgoing/less socially awkward. Another reason why I need someone else in life... I don't know how I would make friends... I've never had much experience I guess. I've been.. more of the third wheel friend... I just don't know... Is it because I'm not used to it or is it because it's how my brain works and acts. I don't even freaking know. I don't know...

Should I argue a topic here when I should either be writing and/or studying? Maybe...

well... idk... what have I posted here? Ahahaah oh gosh... I've had some interesting things... fun to read it XD.... hmmm... IDK... I had a dream yesterday... but I forgot what it is now... I was telling someone about it.... darn.... gosh.... well.... my science table was sharing some around and somebody had a strange one. Should I share some old dreams I've had?

uhh... So there... there was this one dream where there was this big field trip many schools went on... it was like a culinary thing.... and the tables/tablecloths went all crazy and I was eating this purple sparkly book cover on this book my mom has.... and then... something happened and  I guess I helped someone from my first grade class because they were trying to return a favor or something. And the next scene I remember is being in the big brown place where you could pee in public... ahahah yes, I know, but it was there, but at the bottom, there was ... a gift shop and My sister and I was looking for a gift.... for our mom.... but I don't remember if it was a birthday/mother/Christmas gift besides the fact that we may have also been shopping for others as well... I think it was christmas... ornaments? So that dude that apparently now owed me a favor found me and I tried running away because I had said I didn't need present for gifts and they were offering... So then I somehow got a pogo stick on a freeway... and was quickly bouncing back home. I eventually lost them... but got pulled over for leaving blue paint on the highway/freeway, but I got away frrom a ticket because it has never happened before... XD Eventually, I heard my mom and sister catching up on their pogo sticks and we made it to a ACT headquarters and then I was looking for a bathroom and when I woke up

Didn't realize I didn't post this, but yup, ahahaha

Now, my sister once said that she doesn't like reading (she was reading a book for English) because every book has similar story lines. I can see that... and it is pretty true. The thing is, everybody... their  template is all the same as well. We are born, then we live and result in death. The only thing that makes it different is how we are brought up, our influences, interests, environments and what we decide to do with our life. This is what allows us to be different in this world of 7 billion some people when we all share the same template.

Hmm...

Is it a problem that I would rather go off into my research rather than doing actually homework? I mean I understand, homework is extra practice or just giving you better understanding of something, but....
I just think school systems should be adjusted. Everybody in this world is unique, as everybody says, and sure, we may share similar qualities, but we can't all be appeased by the same thing. Some one may thrive in group activities, really pushing towards many understandings, but some just can't focus under those circumstances, rather if left alone, they could possibly come to the same conclusion. (ahahah this is just gonna be a rant of varying subjects that will just move along as my brain moves from each topic to topic, so, yeah, it's gonna get confusing, sorry) I just think, many schools are filled with extroverted teachers (not that being extroverted is horrible, there are amazing people out there that are extroverted.). They have more of the idea that more social speaking would help the students better in things like group activities. It can definitely be helpful for anybody, but some people can't take all the stimulation and sort of withdraw, so it may look like laziness or not normal, but too much of a "good" thing does have consequences... how did I get here from research... I mean I just, I want to learn and know so many things, but procrastination and school work gets in the way. But something like this, I really want to learn more about (for now) a specific mental disorder and how it works because I want to be able to better be of help towards someone if they happen to need a new ear/shoulder. Though I believe those chances are very low, it intrigues me how mental disorders work, just something I think of right now before going into research, what if mental disorders were really the normal people, just society not allow that kind of normalness (it's a word now XD) makes  us alienate them, making them feel inferior. Just a different look and environment can really affect how our world is. Society is one restricting factor all places have to deal with, but we have to know how to break it. Society is a box and it doesn't want anybody destroying that box, so those "different" kids are isolated, shunned (in a way) by "normalness" I don't like how we have this idea of being normal. Who gave a person this right to judge what should be normal. Things like normal, beauty and many other things are very subjective. It depends solely on the person and their belief. In many Asian countries, white smooth skin is very ideal, but places like America, tanning is very ideal, why is this. Why do we have this ideal. Something I feel like we can blame are mirrors. I mean sure, other people can see you and feel attracted or beauty from you, but since you personally (and others) can see yourself, how would you know what is "perfect", or how would you know that you are copying somebody with make up well enough to copy your role model. You wouldn't ever know. And cliches, THERE. ARE. NO. PERMANENT. CLICHES. I mean there could be at a during time period, but it's always changing, Books and happy endings, that is like the most cliche thing nowadays, but many books I've read now has had sad endings, deaths and even some breaking the "codebook" by killing the main character *gasp!* Looking at these, time is yet again changing, there will be a time where dark ending would become cliche while happy things would be a thing of the past. I guess that's it for now, and I should start my homework... learn how to right and research XD XP)

Procrastination Help

Hey! My sister found a link that can help you with procrastination while helping other people as well. http://tap.unicefusa.org/ <-- This link makes you stay on their website on your phone (so maybe you should charge it) and I forgot if you can turn it off, but you must stay on that website and keep your phone stationary for you to actually help. Every 10 minutes without using your phone can provide 1 day of clean water for a child in need. Check it out! It also gives interesting facts about every 15-30 seconds!

Rant: Destiny

Destiny:
a power that is believed to control what happens in the future

It's been a while since this came up, and I think I'm going to make video about this, and please excuse my grammar, I don't think about it when I rant... and I don't find the motivation... courage maybe? to re read what I've wrote and also my English skills just suck in general. So yes, a video of this may come soon...

So, one day in biology class, my teacher brought up whether genes created your destiny or if it was your surroundings that caused it to be created... Ok... at the time it seemed like a good idea to make this... but after reading and researching for Tay-Sachs, I guess it may be obvious... But I guess I should just continue....

So genes or environment. I seriously do believe that, though genes basically code for everything in your life, it is really your surroundings that creates your destiny. I know using a science fiction book as some evidence may not be the best, but I may get to the real facts...

So, a while back, I read a book A Million Suns and the first book, Across the Universe by Revis Beth I believe and (ALERT: I will get into spoilers, so if you don't like that stuff, sorry, but stop right here and don't move on. You may get mad at me if you do and it wouldn't really be my fault because I've warned you, right here. So sucks for you in that case, but I've warned you. SKIP TO THE NEXT PARAGRAPH, if you want of course. There aren't spoilers there.) Elder soon finds out that he, and all Elders/Eldests before him were all genetically identical. They all possessed genes "fit" for leadership. BUT the thing is, each Elder/Eldest (well, at least the three in the first book) acted differently, just because of their surroundings. The first tried to enforce the views of Elder system in, but the 2nd didn't think that was the best way to go. Then, the third, One of the main characters, he is introduced to a girl from the Earth we know today. She has her views of how life should be and though she isn't familiar with life on the ship, she can see things that would be strange, or not normal in our life. Elder, seeing some of the corruption, took away a chemical (Phydus) that made everyone Godspeed (Spaceship) submissive, used by every previous Eldest in the past. .... This just sounds really awkward, but look at each Eldest, though they are genetically identical, they all take leadership pretty differently.

Just take life (argh, a bit distracted, listening to For the First Time in Forever, second time and BLARGH, I'm gonna post something about that too.), someone who may have similar/identical genes, but if one grew up in a loving caring family, great environment, never encounter bullying, etc etc, you may find this person much more approachable than someone who grew up in an abusive life that constantly needed that one person to stand their ground with only fists. Different factors in life towards development can affect how someone grows to be is what I'm trying to say. Similar to a poster I saw in my dentist's office bathroom (XD XD ahaha yes, I know), if someone grows up in a loving and caring family, the kid will learn to love and care as well. If someone grows up in a rough family where fists settle respect and love never appears, the child may learn how to care for themselves, but actually loving, or caring for another may be a reluctant action. No matter what your genes may code for your life, destiny isn't set by them.

(ALERT: going to go into a spoiler moment again. So leave now or you shall forever before scarred of not being surprised by this part in a book. It's not my fault either especially since I'm giving you this warning here. So, shoo if you don't like spoilers.) So, in Allegiant, it had said many of the "healing" towns were always reset/had memory erased when too much corruption surfaced. Since the genes weren't altered, but only the memory, this just shows how genes don't code your destiny. Your destiny before may have been becoming an amazing doctor before, but have that memory erased and put into another environment, high school might not even be your highest concern.

Ok.... I guess I'm done here.... AHH!! It's 12:21 and I still have homework to do... eww, my fault though for doing this. Wish days were longer, but that may just result in me procrastinating more.... ewww. Reading The Fifth (5th) Wave right now. Pretty awesome. I have a few predictions what may happen right now, and many, I hope won't happen, but it may... NOOOO!! If what I think happened, my ship will sink... gosh darn it.... Shipping/fangirl life is hard. Meow, ok, I guess one more thing for the night before I hit the hay, I hope I won't forget anything..... :/

Dream...

Ok... I think I've said before (though I may add a page for this....?) this is gonna be a dream journal as well...

So what I remember from my dream, 2 hours later.... Uh.... I was in Cinncinnati and my mom and I were walking around this corner to this place I passed on a bus. I forgot why I was going there, but I was meeting up with my aunt and her friends. Oh, previously..... Or maybe after, I had switched jackets so my phone and..... Something was missing.. Ah, temps, that and my phone. So I was slightly freaking out but I had somehow texted to my mom or sister I had those things missing.... And I also drove a car that I had slight to no memory of doing... When my mom took over... But maybe because I fell asleep... And then I end up in this dark cafeteria with a few of my friends and dementors came. Two of my friends had their wands and pulled them out but for some reason forgot the spell to repel then and said Avada- expel!! And I was like gosh guys, it's expellarmius!! Wait, Expecto Patronum! But they didn't react and the dementors took a pencil... But a friend of mine must have said accio or something because the dementors disappeared and we got the pencil back.... And I also ran laps for some reason....

AHAHAHAH confusion!!!!

Ramble/Question

So... Sorry if some of you [guys] may find this a bit of an awkward topic, but hey, sucks, it's my blog, so deal with it... XD

So anyways, I've started reading this book and I just got it from the library yesterday and got to this part, "Tampons. I'm constantly worrying about my stash and if I'll be able to find more" okay, so first, this book is The Fifth Wave by Rick Yancey. This book (as far as I know) is how a girl lives her life in an apocalyptic world dominated by aliens. I may be totally wrong, but I'm only about 40 pages in... Or 20.... Or 60... I don't remember... Too lazy to check, but I was wondering if that would be a necessary thing to think about packing along. After a slight discussion, I guess it would be necessary, judging the fact you don't want to risk disease and such, but I think that it wouldn't be on the top of the list. Why not just take them out and make more room for things like food, water, shelter, etc. you can probably find something later on... And she has a thing about keeping good hygiene, even in the face of death... Which I find very unnecessary, why be clean if it's going to be dirty?.... And it takes space... She had a box of Tide!!! So.... Question, what would you think is your list of necessary things? And, if you're a girl (or a guy), would you consider bringing/worrying about tampons/pads/etc? 

Sorry for the amazing grammar, correct if you want to.

FINALLY!!

HA!! ONE OF THEM WORKED!!!! IT'S A BIT CUT OFF BUT IT'S OKAY!!! Ahahahaha, give it a try maybe? It's just me rambling.... about stuff... Opinions are perfectly accepted. I wouldn't mind discussing with people. :D (hopefully someone sees this so it's not like I'm talking to myself..... -.-)

http://youtu.be/BpQU_TFqCKY <----I think this is the link....

~Dragoblue1 (should I do this?)

Maybe I should start working on homework now....

-.-

I think I'll post videos from YouTube onto this blog.... I've tried for the past two hours to get a video up on YouTube, but have failed each time. The first one worked, but I didn't realize that there was a time limit XP. So.... maybe one day.... ARGHHH!!! Technology :/. So who likes warm hugs?

Hello!

This is Dragoblue1? I don't know what my name would appear as but Hi! This blog would probably a collection of rambles and maybe dreams that occurs.... so get ready for some crazy.... or just really boring things to come XD