Hey! Haven't been here for a while. I don't really know what I would like to write about... or what kind of blog this should. I mean, sure, it is my blog, whatever I want right? Yes, but I just don't know how much I want here... and what.... more focus (if any) it should be on. I don't know. Well, school's almost out and I'm glad. Except for the fact that there is summer homework waiting -.-. I DON'T KNOW ABOUT LIFE. I am graduating... soon so to speak, and I have no clue about colleges and scholarships or anything. I mean, safe school, I already got that, but what colleges are good? Good for my potential career? How do I find scholarship? Do I want to stay near home, a few states over, across the country, or study abroad? I don't even know. I don't think I would take a gap year, but the possibilities are endless. Does it matter about whether a school is public or not? What the heck are sororities and fraternities? Dorm or no? I don't even know!! I just want college to come while also dreading the idea... and the future that comes after. I don't know, existential crisis going on maybe? I know I wouldn't be able to live alone, I am too.... jumpy.... or paranoid. Scary movies and such has definitely left a mark... -.-. Oh gosh... and then bugs... ahahah, oh gosh, bugs, I don't want to kill them, but they freak me out... Like how would I be able to survive alone?? I mean, I think I could probably survive alone very well, but at night? Could I make it? I don't know. The ominous future of "real" life is out there and I don't know if I want to go in it or not... Does a guidance counselor help in these situations? I need to speak to someone who is well knowledgeable on schools, careers and such, which is counselor I believe? Oh gosh... I really wish I was more outgoing/less socially awkward. Another reason why I need someone else in life... I don't know how I would make friends... I've never had much experience I guess. I've been.. more of the third wheel friend... I just don't know... Is it because I'm not used to it or is it because it's how my brain works and acts. I don't even freaking know. I don't know...

Should I argue a topic here when I should either be writing and/or studying? Maybe...

well... idk... what have I posted here? Ahahaah oh gosh... I've had some interesting things... fun to read it XD.... hmmm... IDK... I had a dream yesterday... but I forgot what it is now... I was telling someone about it.... darn.... gosh.... well.... my science table was sharing some around and somebody had a strange one. Should I share some old dreams I've had?

uhh... So there... there was this one dream where there was this big field trip many schools went on... it was like a culinary thing.... and the tables/tablecloths went all crazy and I was eating this purple sparkly book cover on this book my mom has.... and then... something happened and  I guess I helped someone from my first grade class because they were trying to return a favor or something. And the next scene I remember is being in the big brown place where you could pee in public... ahahah yes, I know, but it was there, but at the bottom, there was ... a gift shop and My sister and I was looking for a gift.... for our mom.... but I don't remember if it was a birthday/mother/Christmas gift besides the fact that we may have also been shopping for others as well... I think it was christmas... ornaments? So that dude that apparently now owed me a favor found me and I tried running away because I had said I didn't need present for gifts and they were offering... So then I somehow got a pogo stick on a freeway... and was quickly bouncing back home. I eventually lost them... but got pulled over for leaving blue paint on the highway/freeway, but I got away frrom a ticket because it has never happened before... XD Eventually, I heard my mom and sister catching up on their pogo sticks and we made it to a ACT headquarters and then I was looking for a bathroom and when I woke up

Didn't realize I didn't post this, but yup, ahahaha