It's funny how our society is such a contradicting place. Like we want people to have dreams and follow them, but once they don't seem to match what society thinks are the "right" dreams, we put them down. Yet, once somebody achieves the dream that society looked down on, it can be praised like "see look, this person followed their dreams and look at their success, you should follow them." But that isn't quite true, because it normally follows the same cycle. Even with other things, like appearance, we've all seen those posts, Be yourself, so you do, but you can get harshly discriminated, so you try to follow the society and you could be stuck up, there isn't exactly a good side to anything. Even if you do happen to fall under a society liked person, there is pressure to stay that way. You do something different and it can make you drop very easily, or, more accepted. It's a risk people must take doing something against the society. But most of the times, society will always have opinions, could be wonderful or harrowing. It's a risk to take.

Sorry this is really bad, but I just suck in writing/grammar, so... I really do apologize.

Hey! Haven't been here for a while. I don't really know what I would like to write about... or what kind of blog this should. I mean, sure, it is my blog, whatever I want right? Yes, but I just don't know how much I want here... and what.... more focus (if any) it should be on. I don't know. Well, school's almost out and I'm glad. Except for the fact that there is summer homework waiting -.-. I DON'T KNOW ABOUT LIFE. I am graduating... soon so to speak, and I have no clue about colleges and scholarships or anything. I mean, safe school, I already got that, but what colleges are good? Good for my potential career? How do I find scholarship? Do I want to stay near home, a few states over, across the country, or study abroad? I don't even know. I don't think I would take a gap year, but the possibilities are endless. Does it matter about whether a school is public or not? What the heck are sororities and fraternities? Dorm or no? I don't even know!! I just want college to come while also dreading the idea... and the future that comes after. I don't know, existential crisis going on maybe? I know I wouldn't be able to live alone, I am too.... jumpy.... or paranoid. Scary movies and such has definitely left a mark... -.-. Oh gosh... and then bugs... ahahah, oh gosh, bugs, I don't want to kill them, but they freak me out... Like how would I be able to survive alone?? I mean, I think I could probably survive alone very well, but at night? Could I make it? I don't know. The ominous future of "real" life is out there and I don't know if I want to go in it or not... Does a guidance counselor help in these situations? I need to speak to someone who is well knowledgeable on schools, careers and such, which is counselor I believe? Oh gosh... I really wish I was more outgoing/less socially awkward. Another reason why I need someone else in life... I don't know how I would make friends... I've never had much experience I guess. I've been.. more of the third wheel friend... I just don't know... Is it because I'm not used to it or is it because it's how my brain works and acts. I don't even freaking know. I don't know...

Should I argue a topic here when I should either be writing and/or studying? Maybe...

well... idk... what have I posted here? Ahahaah oh gosh... I've had some interesting things... fun to read it XD.... hmmm... IDK... I had a dream yesterday... but I forgot what it is now... I was telling someone about it.... darn.... gosh.... well.... my science table was sharing some around and somebody had a strange one. Should I share some old dreams I've had?

uhh... So there... there was this one dream where there was this big field trip many schools went on... it was like a culinary thing.... and the tables/tablecloths went all crazy and I was eating this purple sparkly book cover on this book my mom has.... and then... something happened and  I guess I helped someone from my first grade class because they were trying to return a favor or something. And the next scene I remember is being in the big brown place where you could pee in public... ahahah yes, I know, but it was there, but at the bottom, there was ... a gift shop and My sister and I was looking for a gift.... for our mom.... but I don't remember if it was a birthday/mother/Christmas gift besides the fact that we may have also been shopping for others as well... I think it was christmas... ornaments? So that dude that apparently now owed me a favor found me and I tried running away because I had said I didn't need present for gifts and they were offering... So then I somehow got a pogo stick on a freeway... and was quickly bouncing back home. I eventually lost them... but got pulled over for leaving blue paint on the highway/freeway, but I got away frrom a ticket because it has never happened before... XD Eventually, I heard my mom and sister catching up on their pogo sticks and we made it to a ACT headquarters and then I was looking for a bathroom and when I woke up

Didn't realize I didn't post this, but yup, ahahaha

Now, my sister once said that she doesn't like reading (she was reading a book for English) because every book has similar story lines. I can see that... and it is pretty true. The thing is, everybody... their  template is all the same as well. We are born, then we live and result in death. The only thing that makes it different is how we are brought up, our influences, interests, environments and what we decide to do with our life. This is what allows us to be different in this world of 7 billion some people when we all share the same template.